Ambiguous

There is nothing ambiguous about

Your grief, the ambiguity is external.

Your grief and mine is a feeling in

Real time. Have no doubts, we are

Not bound by the appearances, the

Optics of our situation. Our loss is

Ever-present. We are not foreseeing

The grief we see, the loss we know

This is not what anticipation looks

Like, except to the outside observer.

Ambiguity and anticipation do not

Define these moments when there

Is loss and grief over that loss. I am

Losing him, moment by moment. He

Is here, that is the appearance and yes

It is true. There will be so much more

To grieve before this ambiguous grief

Is done.